ETERNAL YOUTH ALCHEMY Faith & Becoming
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Title
God, I Feel Late to My Own Life
Scripture
“Lord, my times are in your hands.”
Psalm 31 verse 15
Devotional
There are days when it feels like everyone else got a schedule for their life and you somehow missed the meeting.
They have the marriage, the house, the savings, the settled career. You have half finished degrees, a business that is still trying to stand up, a body that has been through it, and a heart that feels tired. You look at your own life and think, “I am late to everything that matters.”
If that is you, I want you to hear this clearly. You are not an accident running behind. Your times are in God’s hands. That includes the years that feel wasted, the seasons where you chose chaos, and the quiet days that seem like nothing is moving at all.
God is not pacing the floor in heaven saying, “She is ruining my plan with her delays.” He already knew every detour you would take. When he promised to restore the years that were eaten, he did not say “except the years she wasted herself.” He simply said he would restore.
Feeling late often comes from comparison. We measure our progress against someone else’s timeline and decide we are failing. God does not grade you against your cousin, your friend, or the woman on Instagram. He looks at you as his daughter, in your story, with your battles and your calling.
Here is the truth. You may be late to some things in your own plan. You are not late to God’s purpose. Nothing about your age, your past, or your current restart scares him. He can redeem time in ways you cannot imagine. He can compress growth into a season. He can open doors that look completely closed. Your job is not to rewrite the past. Your job is to walk with him in the present.
Today, instead of telling God you ruined everything, try bringing him the exact place where you feel late. Lay it in his hands and ask him to show you how he sees your timeline. You might be surprised at how gentle he is with you.
Prayer
Lord, I admit it. I feel late to my own life. I see where I could have been by now and it hurts. I give you my regret, my comparison, and my fear that I missed my chance. Remind me that my times are in your hands. Show me where you are still writing my story. Help me trust that you can redeem my years, even the ones I wasted. Give me courage to take the next right step today instead of living stuck in yesterday. In Jesus’ name, amen.
Journal prompt
Where in your life do you feel “late”? Write it down honestly. Then beside each one, write this sentence:
“God, meet me in this place, even if I do not understand it yet.”
Title
Becoming in the Middle
Scripture
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians chapter 1 verse 6
Devotional
Most of us like clear before and after stories.
Before she was a mess.
After she had it all together.
The problem is that real life happens in the middle. God starts something in us, then lets us walk through years that feel unfinished, ordinary, or flat out confusing. That middle space is where becoming happens.
Maybe you feel like that right now. You believe in God, you pray, you try, yet your life does not look like the neat version you imagined. You still have bills, grief, and habits you wish you could drop overnight. You want to be the woman in the after photo, while God is still working on the inside.
Philippians chapter 1 verse 6 does not say you have to complete the work. It says God will carry it on. Your job is to keep showing up with your real self. His job is to keep shaping you.
Becoming is not a glow up. It is not a rush to look better, earn more, or impress people who are not paying your bills. Becoming is the slow, steady work of letting God reorder your heart, one choice at a time.
Some days that looks holy. You feel strong, peaceful, and focused.
Some days that looks messy. You cry in the shower, eat dinner in bed, and wonder if God is tired of hearing the same prayer.
He is not.
God is not irritated with your process. He already knew how long it would take. He knew about the years you would feel stuck, the detours you would take, and the days you would want to quit. He still chose you, and he still promises to finish what he started.
You are allowed to be a work in progress and still be loved, called, and useful. Becoming is not what happens after you fix yourself. Becoming is what God is doing in you right now, even in the middle.
Prayer
God, thank you for starting a good work in me. I confess that I get frustrated with my own process and I feel behind. Help me trust that you are still working, even when I cannot see it. Show me one small step of obedience today and give me the courage to take it. I place my becoming in your hands again. In Jesus’ name, amen.
Journal Prompts
Where do I feel “behind” in life right now
What evidence can I see that God has already been working in me over the past year
What is one small act of obedience or self care I can choose today as part of my becoming
